This year has gone so fantastically well for the first few weeks that I was wondering when it was going to crash. And it is crashing. Slowly, I think, in larger doses than needed.
I've come to find out that its harder to be happy with what you've got when what you've got isn't much at all. I'm going to try and stay positive and list things that I do have that is worth it...After I list all the things irritating me lately.
My Job. Which was fine because I needed it and I was thankful. However, Its now pushing me to my limit. They took me off of night shift because I had too much of a hard time with the aroused drunkards. Not that I'm that attractive...when one is horny and drunk, you don't care who you're flirting with to get off and get out. Then, I had to be placed back on night shift due to certain circumstances that were acceptable. However, now its getting harder and harder to stay like this. I have no life because I sleep all day. Nothing gets done when I need it done unless I go without sleep...which is dangerous for those who've seen me sleep deprived. I've also been promised a raise, but that hasn't come yet. Still working minimum wage with more and more work being piled on the night shift because we're slower.
My Mother and her Money borrowing schemes. I'm supporting two families on minimum wage. Its insane. Its not as simple as saying no anymore. She doesn't stop calling....even if I don't answer the phone and I can't ignore her forever.
My Apartment. My lease hasn't been renewed yet for this year. Which may cause me to move out on short notice, but I suppose it won't be that short...because I've already talked to someone about an apartment to move into. The Roommate agrees and we'll split everything, just as soon as the land lady confirms the deal. I can also have My little dog with me. Free cable, but I have to pay for garbage. Which isn't a big deal. A fridge and a stove might be needed, but I don't know yet. I might even have to find myself a washer and a dryer. Man, I feel like an adult.
My Car. Without sufficient funds I can't seem to get my car afloat. Its being repaired and inspected. Bit by bit I am paying the mechanic and once that's done, I'll have to get a plate and insurance. I cringe at the thought.
But, to summarize all of that. there is a great deal of good things there:
I HAVE a job.
I HAVE a Mother.
I HAVE a place to go.
I HAVE a car. &
That car is being FIXED.
Point in case: I've got quite a lot AND things seem bad, but I think they are pushing me to do better and get farther ahead.
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